MY FUZZY LIFE…

wel watz new?nothin much realy..except that i have this eyelugage hir bcoz of a couple of waking nytz..well itz not new to me though..finals week..wat else do i expect?..drz juz something that saddend me ds end term, ist,is d posibility dt mah boi2 is to stop skul next sem for sum personal reasons..haiz..wat am i gona do then?alone again?..dtz goin to be hell!huhu..

its like i’l be ol alone again doin things my own..nothins realy more painful than stoping to do wat seems to be a habit..u see..d seeminlgy unconcious things we do is d hardest to stop..and that’s wat he is in my life..juz like a habit..so hard to leave..so hard to go on without..weeew!wat a line..

oh wel..sounds corny but true..hmmm..i rily dnt know watz wid ds guy.nah..mind u..i dnt know how he made me fall for him..ahaha..

we wer like..errr..fwenz?hehe..y am i teling u ds?nah..am actualy on the verge of cryin ryt nw..juz imagining life next sem without ds guy..i tried to go on without him..d past months dt we cooled off..but u see..i knwits juz so dfrent wen u have someone to care..someone to col urz..ayt?nyahaha..

nw that wer together its seems like time is so playful..am hir and then he’s abwt to leave?huhu..i jz hope ds thing am dreadin of wont hapen though..

if distance makes heart grow fonder in love..and if time will be d test of true love..can we stand d tests of time and distance then?..we will see..and im counting on our love..its goin to be juz fine..am assured he loves me..and o know he knows i do feel d same..hihi^^

love yah mah boi..

mwuah

juz when i thought am finally over him..here he comes again confusing meh..this is simply the lil drama i have these days..hmmm…when i’ve made my decision to quit, to move on..there’s always this force which grabs me back..over and over again..like a never ending story of come and go…

as to when this cycle will end?its still a question i myself cant answer.maybe..until i get too tired of this martyrdome..

haiz life..if only i’d learn to trust you again..but nah..u need to show me more…more…after all..its your fault why i find it hard to believe you..=(

LOVE…LOVE..LOVE…….

its a promise of sweetness and torture rolled into one…its definitely a hell in earth and heaven in this doom….its a two-edged sword that can either defend and save you from this oh-so-fuckin miserable life or put u into a dungeon of eternal pain…

yes!indeed time flies so fast and here i am celebrating my not
so…so…fine…legal day!

i never really expected i would go home and spend my day with my paternal family…i went to bislig city and there i had my day!actually i am expecting more to happen and that would happen if i stayed home.but no regrets..i had it celebrated in advance..

well yah..i had an adventurous 3-day blast for myself..
first,i went mountain climbing and spent my time harvesting fruits…(getting ready for farming??huh..)

next, we ventured the long winding road to Tinuy-an Falls…actually..i’ve been wanting to visit this place since i was in high ..and atlast i got there!
it wasn’t that bad at all..although i didn’t enjoyed much..who would??got no pals with me but my tito jared!hai..again..i just took pictures and left…

the last was a beach party…again..i didn’t enjoyed it that much except for my fabulous pose…ahehe..yeah..i felt it was a reunion rather than a debut party

that ain’t pretty good is it??hahai…i wish theres more to come..wish i had my party with my friends..it was really supposed to be my great day!but everybody’s missing!!
i don’t know why but somehow i regret of coming home and have my expectations failed…maybe i expected too much for it..or i was disappointed of a supposed to be a party with my friends at home…anyhow the party doesn’t matter now… my real day is still about to come..who knows someone might make it one unforgettable day for me??well..hope so…

but for now..nothings left but to sigh and wait…anyway..my pictures..hope i can upload it before going back to school..^^..

hhmmm….wat will u do wen ur past come bak nd telz u he’s still waiting 4 u???and hirs ur present hu promised a love bound for forever???ooohh..uuhhh…u both have feelings for them…dts awful isn’t it???haiii…but don’t wori..i’l follow my heart and let it lead me to the ryt one…hahaha…murag true????joke!!!joke!!!joke!!!

This past few days I just found myself thinking over this guy and being innately affected by what he’d been doing all this times for me…He’s actually really nice..I’ve got nothing to say about his attitude..its just that I’m simply amazed or somewhat always surprised by his sipmple actions or things he’d do for me..He’s not like the typicqal guy you can see in cafes or what..he’s got his own world and well..gladly I believe I’m with his world right now..I just find it exciting to mingle with guys like him…intelliegent yet simple…very simple and happy..In fact that’s why I got Patrick as my bestfriend anyway…hehe..
Well, I really don’t know how to handle him right now.Some people say I have to talk to him…to clear things up..to say we’re just meant to be friends..but actually I don’t want to hurt him..In fact, there’s something that’s holding me from doing that… This past few days, we didn’t had this time together..I don’t know if its me avoiding him or what…I’m really afraid where his simple surprises,his gifts and stuffs would lead to…I’m not really used to being treated this way…waaaa…I just can’t express how I feel…I don’t know what will happen next..but one thing’s for sure…I don’t want to hurt someone…

It has been four months since I entered college…and yes it was as what I expected it to be and even more…New school..new subjects…New circle of friends…new boyz…ahem!…everything was new…except that the feeling of emptiness was still with me…and is still with me…

I thought this would be the kind of life I’ve been wanting for so long…thought that I’d find the happiness far away from home…but then I realized still I’m not contented..I’m still searching for something..longing for something to fill my lonely life..

I tried to change from what I used to be in my high school days…but I guess I’ve changed not to the better but to worst…Imagine..I sleep in my classes now,most of it was with my boring subject political science…I really don’t mind with constitutions!!And English??I really don’t find it interesting either! I love Math more…haha…Not to mention my extra curricular life…haha…I’m going away from it! There’s a lot of offer but I just take it forgranted..haha…I even joined the debating society here…MINDS…just for fun??hehe…but after I was accepted as one I didn’t showed up again…toinkz!

What am I doin with my life??I really don’t know where I’m going to…But anyway…so far I got no flunking grades…I do excel in class…I even was the highest in my math midtermz!hehe…but still it’s not enough to say I’ve done the best…coz right now I don’t feel as if I’m here to study…nah…

Maybe I want to try something new…something exciting and challenging! I wanna shift to courses that would make me feel…wow!I really am a college student now…hehehe…And also…I wanna start relationship with a guy..hehe…I don’t know if I’m capable now…nah…but I juz want to have someone to call MINE??hehe..(Got a potential bf hangin around…haha…) Well…all I can say is…GUD LUCK TO ME!!weeee….n_n

   March 2…Our 4th petiodic exams..I was really tired and very sleepy…in short,wala sa mood..and of all the people…I came to stumble with one hell of a demon who insulted me in front of the compreian..huh..kapal!! malas nya at sa araw na un,inis ako sa buong munho!ayun tuloy…sinuntok ko! sinumpa ko…nilait ko…sa harap ng pipol…hahahaha….lalake ako!!!

whew! Happy valentines to me!! nyahahaha… This day had been wonderful…Why?? i juz love it..hekhek…I got roses and cards from may yabz Jaymond and my friend Kevin… and gez wat? I never expected someone would ask me out!!nyahahaha…Well, he’s Anjo Neil Yu..hmm… and I really appreciated our friendly date…Well, he’s been a close friend to me ever since…And mind you..He’s cute!!hahaha…wala lang…Honestly, I feel empty today…why such?? Well maybe…My Prince charming is still hiding…When will my lovelyf bloom?? I wonder…hmm…